Wow. God is awesome. His hand is in all aspects of life. Yesterday Seth and I were at the mall and I ran into Jill, my midwife, who has just been an amazing support throughout everything. Seth and I had considered not going back to Armstrong Hospital after everything happened with Mia because of a number of things that didn't go well. One of the biggest problems we had was that Husbands have not been allowed to go back into the room with their wives initially during an ultrasound. This was horrific for us because I found out the Mia had died alone without my greatest support, Seth. We both feel that a husband should be involved in all aspects of a pregnancy and an ultrasound should be no different. I spoke at length to a couple of people about this. Jill has been struggling with this policy and the cooperation of the radiology dept. for quite some time. And it turns out, after my ordeal, that they are going to change the policy so husbands/significant others can be present during ultrasounds. I can't tell you what a victory this is. I can't imagine someone else having to go through the same thing I did.
So, Seth and I are going away this coming weekend and I am so excited. We are going to a resort in West Virginia. And, I am getting a massage baby! I can't wait. We are going to have the greatest time. It will be wonderful to get away and just enjoy one another. I might get a pedicure too. Who even knows?
I have decided that this year is going to be great. I feel like God is working awesome things for Seth and I and that we are going to be blessed for remaining faithful to Him during a very difficult time. We are blessed to have the Lord and He gives us so much more than we deserve.
So, I say this...smile, laugh and embrace life because God gives us a life of abundance in Him!
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Hi... Its been so nice to be reading what God has been doing in and through you during this valley you guys have gone through. That is great that they are changing the policy now. I agree about Armstrong Hospital too... Didn't have a good experience there.... Well I hope you guys have a blessed weekend and I am so happy for the work that God has done in you guys! Much Love, Shell
So glad to hear that you guys are going away for the weekend. It's great to have that one on one time. Unfortunately your going to miss my special on Sunday. Im singing "Sing to the King", Im planning on getting a cd recorded so I'll be sure to pass it on to you! Have fun and get the pedicure! xoxoxoxo, jill
Amanda,
I was given your web site by a woman named Lori that i recently contacted about the loss of my daughter. My story is similar to yours in many ways and from what i can gather from your web pages, you live in pgh. I'm now in armstrong county but lived in pgh for the first 25 years of my life.
I'll give you the shorter version of my story (maybe you and i can talk one day). In April of 2005 my friends and i were hit head on by a drunk driver. My passenger, Tina, who was one of my very best friends, was killed instantly and i was severly injured and almost died. So that was my first tragedy of 05.
While i was all crippled up i met the most amazing man named, Donnie, who is now my husband. We found out in august of 05 that i was pregnant and that was a miracle in itself because i was pretty crippled up still and the fact that i have the female disorder P.C.O.S. from the time i was a young teen and was told that i would never be able to have children. I went to Mercy hospital for the 3rd surgery on my leg and found out that morning that i was a lil over a month pregnant. We were all so happy and overwhelmed at the news.
September was a scary month for us. I had a lot of bleeding incidents that were small like a period and then there was the morning that something woke me up around 6 am on a saturday and i thought i was peeing the bed in my sleep. It turned out that i was hemeridging. The dr said if i hadn't woke up i could have bled to death. As i layed there waiting for the ambulance i realized that there was blood clots everywhere and i assumed that i had lost the baby. Very much to our surprise tho, they did an internal sonogram on me and there she was kicking her lil legs. We knew that she was really meant to be then.
October was actually pretty normal. November was the month that everything changed. Nov 14th is my birthday, nov 16th we found out that we were having a girl, and by nov 25th my little baby had died.
I actually can't remember the exact date of when it all started but i do know that we were in West Penn hospital for Thanksgiving and that her birth and death date is November 25th.
A few days before that i was at home alone, Don was at work. I felt really funny down there and when i reached down it felt like a really thick balloon was trying to come out. I called 911 and they had to break down 2 doors to get to me since i was still in a wheelchair from the accident and i was terrified to move cause i didn't know if she was going to come out.
Once i got to armstrong hospital my dr knew right away that my cervix was 70% afaced. They sent me to West Penn immediatley and wanted to try and stitch me up so i wouldn't progress anymore but they later decided that it was too late. I was only into my 5th month so she wasn't viable. But i did get to hold her and i have pictures of her and although a little different she looks just like a full term baby. Ten fingers and toes and jsut perfect in every way. She wasn't able to breath properly cause her lungs weren't completely formed so we got to be with her while her heart was beating for about ten minutes. That ten minutes was the most precious time in my life.
I stayed there a few days while they tried to figure out a way to save her. If i would have been able to hold a few more weeks then she would of had a 50-50 chance of survival with a 95% chance of being severly mentally and phisically disabled or worse.They decided that it was in the best interest of me and her to give birth and let her go.
We had her cremated and i have her urn in our bedroom so she is with me all of the time.
Here we are more than 2 years later and it still hurts just as much as it did then. 2005 was just all around a terrible year for me, minus the fact that i met my husband.
I'm wondering how you pronounce your daughters name. Do you say Mee-a or my-a? Curios because our daughters name is Tia. Tee-a
I would love to able to talk or chat with you more. It's nice to know that your not alone in what you have been thru. Although of course i don't wish this on my worst enemy.
I look forward to hearing from you if you are up to it. I don't think i said my name thru this whole thing, sorry, lol! My name is Tara. pennington624@windstream.net
Hi Amanda. This is Tara again. I'm realizing that you are in Armstrong county and not pgh. You said in the one blog that you were going to harvest community church. I live in Ford Cliff.
I don't know if you'll be there but i am attending the precious dreams group on march 11th. I spoke to Lori at Russell and Paternos office yesterday and Jolene from VNA today and told them that i would like to attend.
Your loss is much more recent than mine and i know everyone handles things differently but i look forward to meeting you at that meeting if your feeling up to it. TTY soon ;-)
Amanda,this is Tara again. I promisse that you won't hear from me again until and if you choose conatct me.
I hope this doesn't sound terrible but i was so overwhelmed to find someone that had gone thru the same type of tragedy that i did and didn't read far enough into your blog before i wrote to you.
I am truly truly sorry if upset you! I didn't realize just how fresh all of this is still. For some reason i thought it had been a while longer.
In many many ways i know what you are going thru and i hope you forgive me if i hurt you in any way.
Tara, I think our family lives in the house you used to live in. I heard that the last people living here had to have the doors broken down by 911 and I think the last name was Pennington. Was your landlord's last name Elder? If so, I live there! :) We go to Harvest Community Church with Amanda.
Margie,
If your the same family that moved in after we left then i believe my husband used to work with your husband, lol!!! What a small world. But yes, our land lord at the time was the Elders. Thanks....TARA*
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